Happy Birthday Lesa!

To have friends means being a friend

It's often difficult to be a friend these days. Sometimes I feel like I lack the heart and patience in being one. It often eludes me of why it's so hard making new ones. On occasion I believe that I suffer from social anxiety which makes it hard for me to make friends or be a friend to those that I have. Some friends come and go and some stay with you throughout your life. Yet, savor the time that you have.

I wanted to put links to other journals that I enjoyed reading from. I hope they don't mind!!!

I got this in my email. If you are a John Cleese fan or just a fan of English humor, you will like this!

AXIS OF EVIL WANNABES
by John Cleese

Bitter after being snubbed for membership in the "Axis of Evil", Libya, China and Syria today announced that they had formed the "Axis of Just as Evil", which they said would be more evil than that stupid Iran-Iraq-North Korea axis President Bush
warned of in his State of the Union address. Axis of Evil members, however, immediately dismissed the new Axis as having, for starters, a really dumb name. "Right. They are just as evil...in their dreams!" declared North Korean leader Kim Jong-il. "Everybody knows we're the best evils...best at being evil...we're the best."
Diplomats from Syria denied they were jealous over being excluded, although they conceded they did ask if they could join the Axis of Evil. "They told us it was full," said Syrian President Bashar al-Assad. "An axis can't have more than three countries", explained Iraqi President Saddam Hussein. "This is not my rule, it's tradition. In World War II you had Germany, Italy, and Japan in the evil Axis. So, you can only have three, and a secret handshake. Ours is wickedly cool."
International reaction to Bush's Axis of Evil declaration was swift, as within minutes, France surrendered. Elsewhere, peer-conscious nations rushed to gain triumvirate status in what has become a game of geopolitical chairs. Cuba, Sudan and Serbia announced that they had formed the "Axis of Somewhat Evil", forcing Somalia to join with Uganda and Myanmar in the "Axis of Occasionally Evil", while Bulgaria, Indonesia and Russia established the "Axis of Not So Much Evil Really as Just Generally Disagreeable". With the criteria suddenly expanded and all the desirable clubs filling up, Sierra Leone, El Salvador, and Rwanda applied to be called the "Axis of Countries That Aren't the Worst But Certainly Won't Be Asked to Host the Olympics". Canada, Mexico and Australia formed the "Axis of Nations That Are Actually Quite Nice But Secretly Have Some Nasty Thoughts About America", while Scotland, New Zealand and Spain established the "Axis of Countries That Want Sheep to Wear Lipstick". "That's not a threat, really, just something we like to do", said Scottish Executive First Minister Jack McConnell.
While wondering if the other nations of the world weren't perhaps making fun of him, a cautious Bush granted approval for most axis, although he rejected the establishment of the "Axis of Countries Whose Names End in 'Guay", accusing one of its members of filing a false application. Officials from Paraguay, Uruguay, and Chadguay denied the charges. Israel, meanwhile, insisted it didn't want to join any Axis, but privately world leaders said that's only because no one asked them.

Can a mortal man be truly 100% pure of evil and hate or 100% pure love and serenity to himself or his fellow being?

Today happens to be my mom's birthday! She turns 44! I got her one of those special messege bibles that she likes. I left it out on the table for her so she could find it this morning! Tonight, I think my father is taking her out to her favorite restaurant, Rococo's!
Here's another note for today being a special date. It's a unusal, wierd, and one of those I-wish-you-didn't-tell-me special occasions that I realized after my mom told me. Today is also the day that 26 years ago, I was conceived!!! It's something that you really don't want to think about, especially on your mom's birthday!

In other news, I am about through with my car. I recently wrote that I had transmission problems with it and I had asked my mechanic to install it when he receives it from another place that was selling it cheaper. He called yesterday, telling me that he installed my transmission, however, he found something else wrong with the car. Apparently the front axial was worn away and he already installed it for 100 dollars! He tried to say if I didn't put in now, I would have to in another month or so and it would cost me 150 for one! All in all, the total for the transmission, the axial, and for installation of both came out to a whopping 1333.35 dollars!!!!
DAMMIT!!!! I'M BROKE!!!!!!!

However, salvation came in the form of my parents, who have said that they would loan me some money for the car. I will pay them back eventually after I build my house! As for my car, it's going to last me hopefully another year. After that, I'm getting a new one no matter what!

I went to the local Food Lion after work to get some bread. As I get in the "12 item's or less" line there, I see my uncle is at the head of the line trying to buy groceries. However, to me it seems that he has more than 12 items! I don't say anything to him because there are two other women between us, so I just watch him and see what he does. Pretty soon a few people start to line up behind me to wait, including a young woman trying to by some beer and wine.
Anyway, as we are standing there, I see that the person at the register has finally totaled all my uncle's groceries. My uncle tries to use one the the firefighter credit cards he has (he's the chief of fire fighters at where I live) and is told that the credit card has expired. He tries to explain to the cashier that he has another credit car that is current, but he still holds line. He finally decides to use cash since he can't find the current credit card. During this time I can hear the young woman behind me talking on her cell phone describing to the other end what's going on with my uncle. I can tell that she getting frustrated....as am I and I'm sure the other people waiting in line.
So right when the cashier rings up the groceries with cash, my uncle finds the current credit card and asks the cashier if he can use that. At that moment, I can hear a collective sigh of frustration from the people in front and behind me. The cashier tries to get the attention of the manager in hopes to find a way to return the cash and use the credit card. I overhear the manager say that they would have to rering up all the groceries! I said to myself..."Oh shit!" He see's me and I all I can do is laugh at him! Again, you have to realize that this the "12 items or less" line and he has more than 12 items.
So they rering him up, and finally uses his credit card to buy the groceries. He finishes, and carts the groceries to the car. As he leaves the store, the young woman behind me says "I would be embarrised if I had to find out that I had more than 12 items to ring up in the "12 item's or less" line and hold everyone up like he did!" I chuckled to hear this and turned to her and said, "Yeah, I know! And I know the guy.....he's my uncle!" She then say's, "Oh! I'm sorry!" I just chuckled again and told her "It's all right. He can be a pain in the ass sometimes anyway"!

So kiddies....what's the moral of this story? Never have more than 12 groceries in the "12 items or less" line when you go shopping. You just piss people off when things go wrong....that's including people who know you and are related to you!

The Odds!

Gamblers Place Wagers on Saddams Demise

You have to read this article. You have to ask yourself after reading this how far have we come as a society when we place bets on death? Scares the shit out of me just thinking about it!

What a marvelous day it was! It was a good day to take a walk, don't you think? I went for a 10 mile walk actually. I enjoyed it but I'm sore right now, legs hurting, and I got a sunburn. I probably waved to everybody that passed me!
Actually got to talk to an old friend, Jared Groot, along the way. Found out he is back home after being broke and his mother is in the hospital! I could only give him my best wishes and prayers for her. Most of what we talked about was just the natural nostalgia of who's with who, who's married/dating, who's sleeping with who, and who's just disappeared altogether! Nostalgia tends to make me meloncholy lately because it's hard to digest how people are and do now. God, I hate growing up! Thinking about this reminds me of one of my poems....

The Loss of Innocence

Why must we lose our innocence to the necessity of experience?
Why must the innocence of a child
be lost to the experience of an adult?
Why must we lose the innocence
of the mind, the body, and of the world?
The mind of the child must lose the innocence of love and unselfishness
to the experience of the adult mind of hate and greed.
The body of a child must lose the innocence of purity
to the physical and sexual experience of the adult body.
The world of a child must lose the innocence of a mother's comfort and safety
to the experience of war and death of the world of the adult.
Why must the child lose this innocence
to the experience of the adult?
The child must sacrifice this innocence
to gain the experience of the adult
to grow and survive as one and with the world.

The world has no patience for innocence anymore. We long for it again but we know that it has to be sacrificed in order to survive.

I hate that feeling you get when you don't know what the hell you are doing but you find out that you doing it right! That's been like that at work lately. I just feel so lost with some of things that are going on. And then there is my car. A used transmission is going to cost me 850 dollars, but that doesn't include the 250 to 300 dollars for installation/labor. Once I get it, I hope my car will last me for at least a year. I'm looking into buying another vehicle, maybe a Subaru Outback or a Toyota RAV4, something that has AWD! I know, it's not much of a "chic" magnet with a Subaru Outback, but what's going to be the difference from now?

The other hard choices right now is trying to pick out a color scheme for my house. It's hard enough to pick the plans for it, now I have to think about what kind of cabinets, what color, what wood, what style, what kind of knobs. I think I'm getting a headache! I do like the cherry color though!

Oh....by the way...has anybody tried this: "Fill a condom with water and put it in the freezer. Once it's frozen, take it out, peel off the latex, and have fun (wink, wink) with the ice!" Actually this came from a day calender of sex tips that my co-worker had. I had to laugh at first when he showed it to me but I'm actually wondering if that would really work? Anybody knows?

Spring is here!!! Tra la la la la....tra la la! The birds are singing........the crickets are chirping....the flowers are blooming; the bugs will be biting...bees will be stinging and tons of spring cleaning and yard work. Dammit, spring is here!

The Seven Deadly Sins

I found this from another blog so I decided to add my answers.

ANGER

1. Who did you last get angry with?
A co-worker
2. What is your weapon of choice?
My ability to make people think I’m planning something devious
3. Would you hit a member of the opposite sex?
NO..never
4. How about of the same sex?
I have
5. Who was the last person who got really angry at you?
A co-worker
6. What is your pet peeve?
People asking why I have a grin on my face, ignorance
7. Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
I have grudges, but I let them go eventually

SLOTH

1. What is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time?
Floss
2. What is the latest you've ever woken up?
Late
3. Name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't.
Chau
4. What is the last lame excuse you made?
I don’t feel good
5. Have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones...)?
No
6. When was the last time you got a good workout in?
Monday
7. How many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today?
none

GLUTTONY

1. What is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice?
I don’t have one
2. Meat eaters: white meat or dark meat?
White
3. What is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event?
I went to a club in Arlington called Mister Daze and had a few shots!
4. Have you ever used a professional diet company?
NO
5. Do you have an issue with your weight?
I’m trying to lose wieght..yes
6. Do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods?
SWEETS!!!!
7. Have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, "LUNCH!"?
NO

LUST

1. How many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)?
Not counting the time I went to a strip club…..around 5 I think
2. How many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family?
Around 5 I think
3. Have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation?
Nope
4. Have you "done it"?
Sorry….I don’t kiss and tell. If you want to know, ask me?
5. What is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice?
Shoulders, neck and legs
6. Have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute?
No but I wish I have!
7. Have you ever had to get tested for an STD or pregnancy?
No

GREED

1. How many credit cards do you own?
two
2. What's your guilty pleasure store?
Circuit City, Barnes and Nobles
3. If you had $1 million, what would you do with it?
Buy both my grandmothers new houses, pay off bills, build my house
4. Would you rather be rich, or famous?
rich
5. Have you ever stolen anything?
Do hearts count! ;) Yes
6. How many MP3s are on your hard drive?
none

PRIDE

1. What one thing have you done that you're most proud of?
Gone to college
2. What one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of?
Probably get into college
3. What thing would you like to accomplish in your life?
Find true love
4. Do you get annoyed by coming in second place?
Not really
5. Have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors?
I think I did
6. Have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score?
No
7. What did you do today that you're proud of?
Kept calm with all the shit that was going on at work

ENVY

1.What item (or person) of your friend's would you most want to have for your own?
The huge Dvd collection
2. Who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with?
I think Ginger because she is redecorating her room right now
3. If you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be?
Me
4. Have you ever been cheated on?
I’m sure I have
5. Have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own?
YES!!!!
6. What inborn trait do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself?
Charisma
7. Do you wish you'd come up with this survey?
Na!

...AND
1. Finally, what is your favorite deadly sin?
Envy

It's the last day of winter!!! WHOOO HOOOO!!!!!

This peom was sent to me in an email. I wanted to share it with everybody.

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids on a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain slapping on the ground?
Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?
You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Do you run through each day on the fly?
When you ask how are you?
Do you hear the reply?
When the day is done do you lie in your bed,
With the next hundred chores running through your head?
You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
Ever told your child, We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste, not see his sorrow?
Ever lost touch, let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time to call and say,"hi".
You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.
When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.
When you worry and hurry through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....thrown away.
Life is not a race.
Do take it slower.
Hear the music before the song is over.

My Retirement Plan

I set up my 401(K) plan this morning through my company! I'm on my way to retirement....in 40 years actually! I just hope I don't blow it by putting it all in the stock market!

Flickerchick.....the comment was my pleasure! I hope it made your day?

I was able to catalog all the movies that I got from my late Uncle Bob, who died this month last year. He was an avid movie buff, collecting movies and movie books. The final count that I got for all the movies were over 500! I'm elated that I have so many. However, some of those include taped Oscars, televison specials, and concerts. If ImKwazy is reading this...I have several tapes of the Three Tenors which I hear that you like Oprah singers like Pavorotti. I can send you a copy if you want! I was surprised to even find a B-rated porn! Actually it wasn't that good since it didn't show penetration and the actors/actresses simulated sex! I'm just surprised that my uncle had one!

Okay...this entry is devoted to Dinglebert Humperdink and Gladis Vazquez! You asked for it....you got it!

Dating women

I haven't been in a dating mood lately. I know it's exciting to hear the juicy tidbits of dating like sweet romance and getting laid. However, I'm afraid that I have to disappoint you when I say I haven't had that in a while. I could say that I'm focusing on building the house and work, but the truth is I'm not in the mood or I'm just too damn lazy to date right now. However, I will provide you with this bit of gossip. As you may know, I am building a house soon. The area that I am building is actually surrounded by my mom's family. However I was recently told by my friend Kelly, that she knew of someone who lived near the area I was moving too. I told her that I would like to meet her since I would like to find a neighbor who I'm not related too. I would like to say that I have made contact with this person...woman....this week and have started talking to her over email! I will have to keep you informed in the future.

My House

Well, nothing much to report about that. I haven't started yet and won't until this summer. All I'm doing right now is paying off the land for it. In a previous entry, I told you about the home show that I went to last Sunday! Oh, and Dinglebert...stick built houses are another name for just regular wood siding houses. I was thinking about log cabins but I found that insurance on them are insane!

My Eating Habits!

Ok...why on Earth would anybody care about my eating habits. Yes! I am a picky eater! I am a freak! End of story!

Poetry

I will include some more poetry in the future. Right now, I seem to have writers block and can't think of anything new. If I think of something I will share it, or I could just share some of the others I have, but again I will include it in the future. In the mean time, why don't you share some with me!

My Predictions on the NCAA Tournament

The only thing I care about for the NCAA is my Virginia Caviliers! If they get into the Tournament, then Go Hoos!!!!

Fashion Tips

Now who the hell wants fashion tips from me??? I'm not gay! I'm just a t-shirt/blue jeans kind of guy! The only tip I know for me is that I don't like Pink!!!!

My Birthday!

My birthday is on Dec. 24th. That's many months away. I'll be 26! But by the time it comes around, most everybody forgets. That's why I hate my birthday!

My feelings!

You know I'm sure it would be a woman to ask me this! Let's see...what am I feeling? Tired! Frustrated! Meloncholy! Horny! All work related too....well, not being horny though. That's a completely different story!

Anyway that's about it that moment. Well, if you have any more questions or suggestions on what to write, I gladly write about them! Just be careful what you ask!!!!

PS: Did I put enough "!" in?

I have been wondering lately if there are rules or etiquette for links to other journals? The few journals that I have linked from mine, I either know the people personally or having emailed them a few times after reading their journals. It sounds strange but do I have the right to link any journal to mine without consent? There are several journals that I have read from time to time that I like very much because they are compelling or stimulating. For example, for the last week, I have actually read a journal written by a porn actress who is very intellectually stimulating.....and yes, I find it also very compelling by it's sexual material. So is there etiquette to wanting to link this journal to my own? I may not agree with the lifestyles, or beliefs, or morals of the people whose journals I read, but at the same time I find myself drawn to know these people have all at least one thing in common.....the need for communication. I respect all walks of life but I know that I would be judged by those very same people. But oh well.....that's life. It will go on with or without us anyway!

I'm adding a bio section on the side of my journal. I know it seems too much but I know I probably scared a few people after commenting in their journals! I just wanted to show I'm not a wierdo or anything...but I'm sure they would after reading my journal. Make a suggestion about what I should add to it!

My folks got back last night from thier trip to Massachusetts. I told them about the bad news about my car and they were very supportive about it. The brought back tons of movie books that my late great Uncle Bob had. I was recently told I can have his collection of movies and books that he owns. He actually owned several hundred movies and books and I get to have all of them. So once I finish my house, I will have an entire library of movie memorabilla! Hehe....quite impressive I must say!
So after church today, we all went to the home show at UVa. I was able to go through a lot of showcases for several products in lookiong into what I can use for my house. I was quite impressed with the selection they had. However, I have to say that my mom put it out best about our skills in knowing about home construction when she told my father that she and I were dummies at this and that my father was the one to really know what to ask and look for! I had to agree with her since I know nothing of what to ask or look for in home construction, though there were a few things I liked!
Actually, at one point, my mom embarrased me! I was going through some of the showcases, where one had a young redhead assisting a vendor. I told my mom about this young woman with her gorgeous blue eyes, and my she said that she would go over to her and tell her that. I thought she was kidding and told her not too. However, in our second time around the place, she actually went over to the girl and told her what I said. HOLY SHIT!!! I couldn't believe that she actually told the girl that I thought she was beautiful! When my mom came back over, she told me that she wasn't married but was in a committed relationship! I was just so embarassed about it!!! God, I'm not telling anything anymore!
So I'm going to have to rummage through some of the stuff within the next few months and decide what I like. I know I'm going to get a couple headaches in the coming months! I hope it will be worth it!
After coming home, I got an email from my friend Kristina asking if anybody wanted to come with her to a Dave Matthew's Concert in September. I really want to go! I'm sure no one knows this but I have never been to a concert before! Also, no one has ever asked me to come to a concert with them before! I would love to go but I'm worried about my financial situation, such as putting a new transmission on my car or with the house! Hopefully, I can find someway to go!

A perfect end to the perfect week. Last week at this time, I had to pay 250 dollars to replace the exhuast pipe after getting it inspected. Arggh. Then this whole week at work has just been a shitty time. I've been trying to deal with a seperate department trying to make my work harder and I get reamed for no reason, TWICE!!! So today, it just keeps getting better....my car breaks down right after work! More precisely, my transmission blows! So as my folks are spending time up in Massachusetts, I have no way to call them to pick me up. Well, it's a good thing that I had my cousin's cell number and she was able to pick me up and take me home! God...I'm tired of this shit!

My folks left early to go up to Massachusetts this weekend. I pray for a safe trip to and from there for them.

I watched the finale of "I'm a Celebrity, Get Me Out of Here!" last night. Cris Judd won! I think he only won because of sentiment he got after talking about J. Lo! I still say it was a joke....but they did it for a worthy cause really. That was to raise money for charity.

I also wanted to share with you a link that some of my friends up in Northern Virginia sent me last night. It's a website that's devoted to the LADDER THEORY, which is a theory on adult male/female interaction. Basically, the creator of the theory tries to explain why men and women can't really be friends based on the rules of attraction. I personally think it's full of shit!! There is no evidence that leads the theory to be true, just the writer's bitter opinions against the female species. Please....go ahead and read it. I would definetly like to know a female perspective on this.

Quote of the Day!

There are a lot of folks who can't understand how we came to have an oil shortage here in America. Well, there's a very simple answer...... Nobody bothered to check the oil. We just didn't know we were getting low. The reason for that is purely geographical: All our oil is in Alaska.... All our dipsticks are in Washington D.C.

What I wouldn't give to be able to lay out in a hammock all night underneath a cloudless and star filled night!!! What a wonderful dream that would be. Once I finish my house, I'm going to find a spot on the mountain to put that hammock up and spend the night outside!

Anybody know how I can keep from falling asleep at work?

I've been adding a lot of links to my journal, so if anybody would like to contribute their website or journal, I would gladly like to add a link from here!