I found this quote while reading another online journal.

You ever get the feeling that reading people's online journals is like cheating? Like you can't be damned to get to know them better? I do sometimes.

Very fitting and ironic to me as of late. Seems to be a one way street though for some people!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTINA!

Always heed the advice of your mother when she says "Be careful when you leave. It's icy out there"! Well, I didn't heed it. As I was walking out the front door and down the porch, on the first step, I slipped! The whole damn porch steps were icy! Well, sufficite to say, I bruised my ass and my ego! I hope I'm not walking funny later tonight since I have a date.

DAMMIT!!! I owe $157 dollars after doing my taxes! There goes that blow up doll that I've been looking to get!

I wish they would turn off the snow machine up there!!! I'm sick of snow! I want it to be spring where it's a least a little bit warm and sunny! I'm going to shot that ground hog myself if he predicts another 6 weeks of winter!

I just had the biggest urge to search the internet under Google, a search engine, under the names of everybody I know. It's actually quite strange and facinating on what you find under a person's name. I tried searching under the names of some of the people I know or knew to see if they had some type of information on them, whether it be a personal website on them, to some useless fact about them, or to just seeing their name in a sponsered marathon in which they came in 43rd for that race! I would trying searching for someone you know because you never know what you may come with!

I'm glad life isn't fair......imagine if it was!

Apparently I'm famous! There's another guy named Chris Rice. He's a Christian singer, and I have been asked if I'm that famous Christian singer Chris Rice. NO, I'm not him...but this his website!
I have also been told that I write books!!! Just kidding!! Christopher Rice, son to Anne Rice, is also a Chris Rice that is a writer! So many Christopher Rice's in this world! I guess I'm next to be famous with my name. Only question is what am I going to do to become famous???????

Sometimes I wish I could like and drink coffee like most normal people!

I know some of you out there are eagerly awaiting to hear about my exciting life, especially my totally exciting weekend!

Here it is. On Saturday, I went up to Fredericksburg to meet Chris again about plans for a log cabin. He gave us a quote of two of the plans that I had. The cheapest one was 25 thousand for a kit, which isn't too bad. However, you have to realize that it also another 25 thousand for building costs, and added that with the 32 thousand for my loan on the land I'm buying, it brings the total up to over 80 thousand. I'm trying to keep the loan between 80 to 90 thousand because that's all I can afford on the loan and mortgage payments. I couldn't really understand what the HELL the guy talked about....that's why I'm glad I had my parents with me to tell me in english what it meant. I don't know if I'll fully understand how everything works by the end of it!

On Sunday, I went up to see my Mom's family. They were throwing a birthday party for my cousin Dee, who turned 25. It was the usual birthday party, dinner at 3:30, dessert, and opening of presents. I don't know why but I seemed to be the only guy there watching my cousin open up her presents, which included two pairs of bra and thongs! YES, I was there, watching them open up this, and I should worried that I didn't get uncomfortable. Actually I'm quite use to it because most of them have a weird kind of sexual humor to them. Trust me!

Came home later that night to watch the Super Bowl. I was more excited to watch the commercials than the game itself. Actually I didn't catch them because by 9, I was watching High School Reunion on the WB channel.

Anyway, right now I see people on AIM that I haven't talked to in a while or just surprised to see them on. However, I don't want to talk to them at the moment. I don't think they really don't give a damn any more if they want to talk to me. Hell, if they are reading this, they don't need to talk to me.....they just have to read my exciting life to date!

I found out that my uncle Willie had a stroke, or what looked like a stroke, yesterday. I didn't get all the details because when I came home, my mom went to see him in the hospital and my father was at home when he was told. It wasn't until around 10, in which my mom got home, in which she told us that he had stroke-like symptoms, one them being that he was numb on one side. She said he was doing fine when she left the hospital, before he had a MRI done. He's the same uncle that is selling me his property, which I'm not really worried about, but my mom told me that they are still planning to go through with selling the property.

Dreamcatcher

I had the wierdest dream last night! I dreamt that I was stuck on a deserted island with all my ex's and girls I dated! You know you think this would start out as a fantasy but it was far from it! All of my girls/women just totally ignored me and when ever I try to come over to interact with them, they laugh at me and run me off to the other side of the island! They we are, the girls on one end, creating a community for themselves and me on the other end, becoming a lonely and wild creature! I would hear them partying at nights, chanting "Kill, kill, kill", and I was wondering if they were referring to me! Then one day, I see them, dressed like Amazon women, painted up with war paint, carrying spears. They start racing over to me with their war call and I'm trying to get away. As I'm about to be caught, I get knocked out. When I awaken, I'm tied to a pole over a fire, while they are asking themselves..."White or Dark meat?"

Now how fucked up of a dream is that??? Now I can tell you that my worst fear would be to be stuck on island alone, but to have those I dated hate me enough to ignore me and then kill/eat me! Now, I know some of my ex's and some women I have dated read this, so I have to ask this....DO YOU REALLY HATE ME THAT MUCH????

Thought of the Day!

There is more money being spent on breast implants and Viagra than Alzheimers research. This means that by 2020, there should be a large elderly population with perky boobs and huge erections and absolutely no recollection of what to do with them.

I received this thought from an email. Just thought it was way too funny not to share!

Trip to Northern Virginia

It seemed like I traveled all over the Northern Virginia/Washington D.C. area this weekend!

It began when I arrived at my friend, Ginger's, house in Herndon. After having dinner with her family, we went over to her friends house in Fairfax. After Meghan arrived, we started off a fun filled night with picking out several board games to play! I'm serious...it was fun! We first started with the game called Baulderdash, in which Meghan won, then went on to play Life, which Meghan won also. After finishing that, we played Parchisi, which I won! Now that was an exciting game....everybody just about a heart attack with that. We finished up the night playing Head of the Class. That was more difficult than I expected!!! After finishing around 2, Ginger and I went back to her home.

The next morning, we went for breakfast. At the resteraunt, we meet Ginger's friend, Heather! After finishing up breakfast, we decided to go to Washington D.C., first to check out the International Spy Museum, but decided not to go after seeing the block long line outside of it. We did get to see the many...many protesters that we up there protest the coming war with Iraq! After going through traffic, we went to Georgetown. While there, Heather took us to a couple of sex shops!! Yes, sex shops! We first went into a S&M clothing shop and we looked around the leather clothing and outfits. We then went to The Pleasure Place. WARNING, The following is an adult link.....I warned you!!!! Anyway, it seemed to have everything imaginable!!! To be honest, I was neither excited or bothered by what they had there, but I thought it was cool and interesting. I would say for everyone's pleasure! However, I didn't buy anything! After that, we went back to Herndon.

After getting back to Herndon, I packed my stuff and headed off to Fairfax to see my friends Nick, Sideburns, and Spiderman Dan. After arriving at their place, I go in to see them, I am suddenly jumped on by Nick....I think he was happy to know I was there!!! Unfortunetly, his sudden and surprising weight cause me to fall down and break the coffee table in the living room! That happened to be the most lively hello I have ever gotten before!!!
After mourning over the table...a couple of seconds I think....we headed out to Wendy's for food and came back. Around 7, my friend Rachel came over to visit and hang out. We then headed out to dinner...well just her....to a Chinese restuarant. After finishing, we went by to see my friend Chris working a book store in the same mall. Since he was busy, we went to our friend, Q's townhouse. We stayed and watched the movie Go. When Chris got there, who also lived in the town house, we decided to visit Chris's friend's place. After staying there, not know what to do, for an hour, Nick, Rachel and I came back to Nick's place.
During the drive back, we were talking about buying/building a house. The conversation came up because I am in the process of building of house myself. During the conversation, Nick proceeds to say that building a house is scary and that it would mean that my life is over!!! OVER!!! I don't think my life is over, is it!!! It's not like I'm going to get married or have kids.....that doesn't mean that life is over either!!! But to think that life is over because you have the responsibility of owning a home is rediculius! MY LIFE IS NOT OVER!!!!
Anyway, that was my weekend! A bit boring but I long needed this trip up to Northern Virginia!

Up in Northern Virginia! I'll be back Sunday to tell you all about my adventures!

Quote of the Day!

"Earth is the insane asylum for the universe"

Sleepless nostalgia

I woke up last night in the hour of the wolf.....what I call the hours between 2 and 4. It's that time when you lie in between waking up and sleeping, not really knowing which way to go. I can tell you, it's a very lonely at that time. It's hard to go back to sleep so your mind wanders off. Last night, my mind wandering back to nostalgia, to past moments of my life. It's not a good thing really. Lately, every time I get nostalgia, it becomes sickening for me. I tend to focus on so many missed opportunities, so many moments, that I had in the past and begin to wonder how I could have changed them. Regrets...that what they are. If you begin to dwelve on them too long, it seems to poison both mind and soul. Too many regrets made....not enough said or haven't said. I tend to push them down but I know someday they will only explode into something darker and huanting.
At this point, there is an urgancy for me to apologize to some for hurting them. I seek redemption from those few in the only way I know how. I want you to know that I'm sorry for hurting you.

101 Romantic Commandments!

Well, I just received this list from an email that I got! It has 101 commandments for a guy to have a good relationship! I figured this is good since it is one month away from Valentine's Day (hack, hack)! Damn Hallmark! Anyway, I would love to find out if any guy has done all these things! If anybody has something to add, just tell me!

101 steps to having a good relationship

1. Watch the sunset together
2. Take showers together
3. Back rubs/massages
4. Listen to classical music and cuddle in the dark or w/ backlight
5. French kiss
6. Hold her w/ hand inside the back of her shirt
7. Whisper to each other
8. Cook for each other
9. Skinny dip
10. Make out in the rain
11. Dress each other
12. Undress each other
13. Kiss every part of their body
14. Hold hands
15. Sleep together (Actually sleep with other *not sex)
16. One word *Foreplay
17. Sit and talk in just underwear
18. Buy gifts for each other
19. Roses
20. Find out their favorite cologne/perfume and wear it every time you’re together
21. Wear his clothes
22. Find a nice secluded place to lie and watch the stars
23. Incense/candles/oils/blacklights and music make for great cuddling/sex
24. Kiss at every chance you get
25. Don’t wear underwear and let them find out
26. Kinky is bad, Blindfolds are good
27. Lightly kiss their collarbone and their jawbone just below the ear, then whisper I love you
28. Bubble Baths
29. Go for a long walk down the beach at midnight
30. Make love
31. Write poetry for each other
32. Kiss/smell her hair
33. Hugs are the universal medicine
34. Say I love you, only when you mean it and make sure they know you mean it
35. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetry etc.
36. Tell her that she’s the only girl you ever want. Don’t lie
37. Spend every second possible together
38. Tell her that she doesn’t have to do anything she doesn’t want to. And mean it
39. Look into each other’s eyes
40. Very lightly push up her chin, look into her eyes, tell her you love her, and kiss her lightly.
41. Talk to each other using only body language and your eyes
42. When in public flirt w/ each other
43. Walk behind her and put your hands in her front pockets.
44. Put love notes in their pockets when they aren’t looking
45. Clothes are not fun
46. Buy her a ring
47. Keep one of her bras somewhere you see it everyday
48. Sing to each other
49. Read to each other
50. PDA = Public Display of Affection
51. Take advantage of any time alone together
52. Tell her about how you answered every question in math with her name
53. Draw. (If you can)
54. Let her sit on your lap
55. Go hiking and camp out together in the woods or on a mountain
56. Lips were made for kissing. So were eyes, fingers, and checks, collarbones, hands, and ears
57. Kiss her stomach
58. Always hold her around her hips/sides
59. Guys like half-shirts
60. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for two deal
61. Spaghetti *(Ever see Lady and the Tramp?)
62. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes, kiss her hand, and then put it over your heart
63. Unless you can feel their heart beating, you aren’t close enough
64. Dance together
65. Sit in front of a roaring fire and make out/make love
66. I love the way a girl looks right after she’s fallen asleep with her head in my lap
67. Carry her to bed
68. Waterbeds are fun
69. You figure it out
70. Do cute things like write I love you in a note so that they have to look in a mirror to read it
71. Break every one of your parent’s relationship rules for them
72. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes
73. Even if you are really busy doing something, go out of your to call and say I love you
74. Call from your vacation spot to tell them you were thinking about them
75. Remember your dreams and tell her about them
76. Ride your bike 8 miles just to see them for a few hours
77. Ride home and call them
78. Tell each other your most sacred secrets/fears
79. Somehow incorporate them into any kind of religion or worship you have
80. Be Prince Charming to her parents (Brownie Points
81. Act out mutual fantasies together (Not necessarily sexual)
82. Brush her hair out of her face for her
83. Stay up all night to think of 101 ways to be sweet to them
84. Hang out with her friends (Brownie points)
85. Go to church/pray/worship together
86. Take her to see a romantic movie and remember the parts she liked
87. Cuddle together under a full moon on a clear night
88. Learn from each other and don’t make the same mistake twice
89. Everyone deserves a second chance
90. Describe the joy you feel just to be with her
91. Make sacrifices for each other
92. Really love each other, or don’t stay together
93. Write a fictional story about how you met/fell in love, etc. and give it to them
94. Let there never be a second during any given day that you aren’t thinking about them, and make sure they know it
95. Love yourself before you love anyone else
96. Learn to say sweet things in foreign languages
97. Dedicate songs to them on the radio
98. Fall asleep on the phone with each other
99. Sleep naked together
100. Stand up for them when someone talks trash
101. Never forget the kiss goodnight. And always remember to say “Sweet Dreams”

"Strangers are just friends waiting to happen"

Snow Days!

I hear it might snow this Thursday and Friday. God I hope not! I was planning on going up to Northern Virginia this weekend to see all my friends up there, for which I haven't seen in six months! I especially want to see my friend Pat...she's around 5 months pregnant. That's actually been going around lately. My friend Jennifer...aka Frankie....is 7 months pregnant. It kind of puts a perspective on things when you are dealing with life. I know most people from High School are either married, have kids, or both. Even some I've heard are already divorced! I guess you start thinking about these things when you reach the ripe old age of 25!

I'm really in need of an epiphany! How about a revealation or manifestation of somesort? No...then how about a clue! That's all I ask for!!

If you have one, can I borrow it?

Quote of the Day!

"Movies make it seem that, when you're in love, great sex comes naturally. The desire to please does, but the technique doesn't!"

Loans and Cleaning

My bank called yesterday to tell me that I can get the loan on buying my uncle's trailer and land. However, to my disappointment it was a bit less than I hope for. The bank offered to give me the loan for 80 percent of the appriased value of my uncles land and then I would have to pay the 20 percent as a down payment. Let's just say that the amount that it is needed for my down payment is six thousand more than I have!
However, when I got home last evening, my parents had a talk with me. They told me that if I could get another 1000 with what I have in the next month, which I'm sure I could since I just got a raise, they would lend me the five thousand with that. Let's just I was overjoyed with this news! But now the real fun begins with getting everything in order! My folks are warning me that I'm going to get many headaches! But in a year hopefully, I'll have my own house.

Anyway, last night, after that, I just relaxed on the couch watching the season premiere of Farscape and Stargate: SG1. While I was watching the shows, my cat Tink comes down to lay down on me and sleeps on my chest the whole time. Actually watching these shows, I noticed Tink was just flat out passed out! When I picked up her head, it was limp and at first I though she was dead! However, when I went to pick up, she woke up crying! Whew...I was glad to know she didn't die on me! She must have been dead tired.....excuse the pun!

This morning I helped clean up the house. I spent the morning cleaning the bathrooms (not the best job in the world), mopping the kitchen and bathroom floors, and the task of cleaning between the tiles near the front door foyer with a toothbrush! We found later that we have a new house coming up beside us and they were clearing the land. We sudden found out that while they were clearing the land, they cut the cable that was in the ground and we could not watch cable!!! We sufficite to say we survived but my father wasn't able to watch the basketball game this morning! HOwever, it has now been fixed and we can now watch tv!!!

High School....again!

I was watching a show on the WB channel tonight called High School Reunion. What it does is that on the 10 year reunion of the class of 92, it brings forth a bunch of people from that class to see how things...or if things...have changed in 10 years, let these people stay for two weeks in a mansion in Hawaii, and see what happens to them. I have to say it's an interesting concept really. I know in High School, I was the shy, quiet, nerd/loner! It seemed like they took every person that had the stereotypical role that one would have in H.S., such as the jock, the cheerleader, the unattainable girl, and the nerd. The question is, would if had a certain role in high school, would you be the same 10 years later?
I ask that about me....have I changed since high school? I will be coming up on my 10 year reunion in another 3 years. I tend to believe that I have gotten far from my image that I portrayed in high school after going through college. I may tend to be the shy and quiet type when it comes to meeting new people but I tend to warm up to them. Also finding out other classmates have or have not changed is another thing. Now because I still live in the same area, the same house, since high school, I tend to run into a few old classmates now and again. I have also took the step of signing on to Classmates.com, a site where you can see other classmates in high school and college. I've already email several people that I found on there that I went to high school with. Some have replied back, but I'm still curious to see if others will. Actually there is one person on there that I had a huge crush on all throughout high school but never really told her. She was the prom queen, and the last I heard was that she married the prom king, went with him to California, but a few years ago heard that they divorced. I'm starting to think that I could get a second chance. But the question, has those people changed or stayed the same?

Question: What were you in high school and do you believe you changed?

Quote of the Day!

A good friend will come to bail you out of jail......but, a true friend will be sitting next to you saying, "Damn....we fucked up."

"Reality" TV?

Is anybody else worried about the state of reality tv? Take for example, "The Real World", on MTV. I think it was this show that made reality tv what it is today. You take 7 real strangers and film them 24/7. However, it's only a 30 minute show once a week that depicts the torrid affairs and triangles of these people and draws them out like a soap opera. I admit freely that I watch this show! In watching the new season, which is located in Las Vegas. Is it me or are the people on this show a bunch of wild horn dogs? One girl is....or was....having sex with one roommate but is showing in next weeks episode that she is going after another roommate. They even talk about this girl coming close to being pregnant by the first roommate! Now two other roommates are going at it while one one them has an open relationship with her boyfriend! Now is this what you call the "Real" world...because if it is, then I shouldn't even be in it!!!

Also, the other "reality" show that I can't help but notice is "Joe Millionaire"! When it first showed previews for it, about a man having to select one girl from 20, I thought to myself, are they running out of ideas. Then the kicker came.....the show told these women that the guy that they were going after had 50 million dollars. However, in truth, the guy is a construction worker that only makes less than 20 thousand. My first thought to this was this is getting really cruel! The boundries have been crossed and tv is going into territory that is just evil! I would think how would the woman that this guy pick feel about being fooled on national television and made a mockery of her! I would be devestated by this conclusion!
However, I truly think this is very very fair! I think it's a great idea once I began to think about it. After shows like "Who Wants to Marry a Millionaire", I was thinking that women just went into this for one thing....MONEY! I mean I have to believe that these women who go out for these shows are a bunch of golddiggers who only marry for money! So this show, "Joe Millionaire" is perfect for showing what...not all....women want.......to marry a rich man! How will the last woman react when she finds out this guy is not rich? Are her feelings for him just as strong as the desire for money? I can't wait to see.

Women in the Military?

Today at work, eating lunch in the break room, I was listening to four women, including my friend Jodie, talk about why women should not be in the military or even president. They agreed on some aspects of having a woman as president, most believing that a woman would be too emotional. One of the women said that if a woman was president, during "her time" on 9-11, it would be all over. I didn't say anything because I had four women around me at the time so I was in "enemy" territory!!! But as for the fact as to if a woman ever being president and what she might do is still remains to be seen.
As for women in the military, I agreed with with Jodie when she believed that women should NOT be military in fighting. Oh, don't get me wrong...I'm all for women having that choice to be in the armed forces and fighting for their country. However, it's the aspect of women fighting in battle that I don't agree with. The reason that was said was that they are not as physical strong as men....which I believe is true. Also, we have gotten use to seeing men die in battle but it's far more different than seeing women die. However, in my view, women should not go into battle because women are our most needed natural resource. What that means is that women can have children, men cannot. Hell, you don't even need a man for a woman to have a child these days.....you just need our sperm!!! You can freeze it and thaw it and use it the way you like and you don't need without the natural mess of men!!! So in battle you can replenish an army with new beings....but the only drawback is that it takes over 10 years for that!

Willie Wonka

Willie Wonka and the Chocolate Factory was on t.v tonight! I have to tell you the truth, that movie scared me as a kid. Hell, it still scares me!!! Especially the boat ride!!! Yall remember that.....as they are going through the dark tunnel on the boat, all those strange images coming up, with Willie Wonka doing that singing/chanting! Gee's....that scared the hell out of me as a kid! But now, as an adult...well, supposedly an adult....I watch it over and over and see what's wrong with that movie! What scares me now is that if you notice as the Umpa Loompas, as they work with the food and candy, THEY AREN'T WEARING HAIR NETS!!!! Seriously....that's a serious health code violation!! If I was a health inspector, I would have closed that plant down and thrown all those Umpa Loompas back where they come from, whatever the hell that is!!! No more song and dance for those annoying little orange people!!!

I'm a day tripper!

I went up to Fredericksburg today to check on some log cabin kits. We went to see a guy, also named Chris, about the kits he sells from this company and took a tour of the house that was built. We then went over the plans that I liked. I think I found one....well, actually a modified plan....one that my father was able to cut and paste! It would be about a 1000 sq. ft. with two bedrooms and one bath, and I'm planning on putting in a basement! I'm really excited about it! However, I'm still waiting on to see if I can get the loan to buy my uncles land first! I don't get word from the bank about that until this Thursday! After that, well, it goes all up hill!
After talking to the guy, we went over to Lowe's to check out what I can get for my limited budget....loan! Actually, I swear, I think my mom is more pysched about this then me. She was going through Lowe's trying to point out things that I will need. I will decide on what I want to get but I'm going to make her my personal Interior Decorator. The truth is I don't have an eye out for what color tile goes with what base board or kitchen cabinet. It's that male defiency of determining what color difference is!
So the truth is ladies.....we men really do need you to help us pick out colors!!!! We are really lost without you!

Happy New Years!

I actually had a decent time last night. We had a party at my house, my parents had invited all the neighbors over. At first I was my recluse self but I just decided that this night I wanted to change and be socialable. I have some pretty weird neighbors really after talking to them! However the highlight of the night....and I know this is going to shock some people...but I had some alcohol!!!! Yup, I tried a White Russian....well, took a couple of small sips....and two shots of Vodka! The person that made these for me....my father of all people!!! Let's just say that everybody at the party were quite surprised that I was drinking!

Well, I hope this is the start of a pretty good year for me!